Friday, February 26, 2010 ○ Special Memories

So I had trouble thinking of what to write next.  I know it happens to all of us writers!  LOL!  But now I'm at a part in the story where mine and Country-ex's relationship began and that was 6 years ago.  That's a lot to remember and I only want to try and hit certain important events.  But I thought long and hard and came up with a few stories to share.

One special memory was our first St. Patty's Day together down on Greenville Ave.  Country-ex had a ski trip planned way before I knew him.  And he had way before I knew him invited this woman to go with him along with his brother and brothers girlfriend at the time and some others. He hadn't dated this woman much and he did say she was older which I thought funny cause Country-ex is so not like that to date a cougar.  But I'm not saying she was that old.  So he let's me know she is going but that he said he would not be seeing her anymore because he met me.  How sweet☺  She already bought everything but he worked it out that they would have separate rooms.  And I wasn't worried.  I don't remember how many days he was gone, but missed him so much.  He was getting back from Telluride the day of St. Patty Day.  It was just one of the many traditions we started.  It was and still is fun to head down there.  This years will be bitter sweet because Country-ex and I will not be doing it together.  But I have new wonderful friends that I will be going down there with me.  But that first year was a blast!

My first trip to T-town to meet Country-ex's family was fun.  And I was little nervous.  I can't remember everything we did that weekend, but remember going to the country club while the guys and Country-ex's Dad played golf.  They let me swing at a few balls in my jeans and heels!  But I was content to ride in the cart and drink margaritas.  Country-ex's family is wonderful and I miss them to this day.  I stay in contact with his Mom.  We were always close.  I actually just got an email of my birthday present from her.  We chat every so often and keep in touch.  I miss her a lot!  I also got to meet Country-ex's friends who were very nice.  It is a different world out in T-town, but they were down to earth and just liked having a good time!

Another fun trip was when we went to Country-ex's high school reunion.  His best friend MW went too.  That is where I met one of my best friends today, Monica!  The first night we met, we clicked!  I felt special to be there with Country-ex and meeting even more of his friends.  He always made me feel that he was proud to have me by his side.  Years later that feeling changed some. The night of the reunion afterwards Country-ex came up with the crazy idea to head to the all black club, Mister D's!  Even one of Country-ex's female black classmates said hell I don't even go there.  But when Country-ex had drinks in him and he had an idea of doing something there was no stopping him.  One of his guy black friends was on his side and we got a big group together and headed a ways just outside of T-town.  Country-ex said to just keep my wits about me and try not to piss anyone off!  God was my life really in danger!  Country people can be crazy, but really!  I remember going to the restroom and thinking, he said don't look anyone straight in the eye, I could piss them off that I'm in their club.  But as the entire group got there, we started having fun. 

It was getting late and I had just had enough to drink so I called it quits...when all of a sudden they announce there will be a dance contest...and Monica is entering!  Now Monica is white so I wasn't gonna let my new friend make an ass of herself as the only white girl so before I knew it I was up on that stage dancing away!  It was Monica and I and 2 black girls.  They took us on stage, introduced us and we were off!  We all took turns dancing on the stage alone.  I think I was 3rd or 4th.  But those black girls showed all their goods!  Oh fogot to mention...we were dancing to win $300!  Plus we made some money as we danced too!  Guys would throw money up on the stage.  We all danced our turn when they announce we are gonna have the ladies take a quick break and bring them up again for one last time.  AGAIN?!?!?!  So the manager buys us a round of drinks and off we are again.  Now when doing my dancing I thought, don't get nasty cause that's not me, but just do enough to get people riled up!  Again the black girls are on the floor legs in the air, stuff hanging out, making the tips.  We finish and they go one by one judging each of us by level of applause.  Well hold on to your pants ladies and gentlemen BUT I WON!!!!  hehehehe!  $300!  The manager of the place was very nice and said we were welcome back any time.  We all stayed a bit longer, but not much because it was well past 2am.  And as we walked out Country-ex said to hold on to my purse tight and let's get to the car.  He said that is someone's grocery money you just won.  The next day we joked with his black friend when we offered to take him to breakfast.  This friend said, what do you think your doing bringing your white girlfriend out here and stealing all our money.  He was joking, but he didn't go to breakfast with us.  Waffle House that morning was oh so good!

I've got a few more beginning stories to share and will have them for y'all tomorrow!
I'm off to see Phantom of the Opera tonight with my folks.  It's my birthday weekend so let it begin!!!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010 ♦ Shecky's Girls Night Out Event

So I wanted to talk about the event I went to last night.  Shecky's Girls Night Out.
http://girlsnightout.sheckys.com/
Shecky’s Girls Night Out is a five hour shopping event of up and coming designer names from across the country, with complimentary cocktails and mini makeovers all included in the admission price of $25. Mixing alcohol with shopping — a girl could get used to this.  Plus the goodie bag is way fun!  It not only has super cute samples it has regular sized lotions for body and face, razors, deoderants, makeup, makeup bags and much more.

So Jessica and I head to the Fashion Industry Gallery.  The event goes from 5-10pm and we arrived at 8pm.  Lots of girls coming in and out with their goodie bags!  Police officers standing at the door checking ID's, so we were protected!  There were a lot of jewelry vendors.  And nice selections too.  There was some of the usual cheesy jewelry, but we were pretty impressed.  Priced from $200 (that was just one vendor) down to $15.  So priced for everyone.  There was clothing, shoes, hair dryers, sunglasses, scarves, makeup.  They offered at 2 bars a Midori drink and X-Rated pink drink for you to enjoy.  The pink one was the most popular!  I LOVE jewelry so that made this event more fun since there were so many vendors.  I bought a ring and Jessica got me a necklace and earrings for my birthday.  See...

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
After making the rounds we got our goodie and bag and off we went!  Oh but we had to stop...more jewelry vendors.  Jessica picks up this darling necklace that looks like a Stella & Dot necklace.  Pearls, gold chains and a big white flower broach.  So cute!  She asks how much is this?  $25...what?!?!?!   Both of our mouths dropped.  She says I'll take it.  But wait I want one too.  She doesn't have another one.  Luckily she takes down my information so hopefully I will hear from them.  When I hear of the next time this event will be in Dallas I will post the date! 
God I love shopping!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010 ♥ Valentine's 2004

Hi Everyone!  Hope you all had a nice weekend, I did.  It was pretty low key and loved hanging Sunday night with my best buds David and Martin!

So now that I've told some beginning stories I kept thinking what am I gonna write next.  I think that is why I have had a couple days absence.  Now ...is where mine and Country-ex's lives began.  There were so many days, so many stories, so many experiences.  So when we broke up, one day I thought about the almost 4 years of pictures we had on his camera.  Plus I'm sure I was feeling down and had a thought that once I downloaded the pictures I would send him a few fav ones just to see if it would start a spark or flicker.  I know sad, but you gotta do what you gotta do.  Again I will revert back to my new fav song, "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum where she sings "I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all".  So true, and we all do it to ourselves.  So getting to my computer tonight I thought, go back to the pictures you download from Country-ex's camera for inspiration.  I have a file named "The Old Days" which will be the best pictures of my life.  And then I saw our picture from Valentine's Day.  One of the best Valentines Day I ever had...

See one thing with John, my ex before Country-ex, was that he was wildly and crazily romantic.  Candles, birthday cards, romantic cards, love letters, emails, writing a poem for me and framing it as a present, massages, cooking naked, celebrating our anniversary every single year like it was our honeymoon and things I can't write on here...he went all out.  And as a woman you love it and to me experiencing this at an early stage in my life because I was 19 or 20 when I started dating John you think all guys are like this.  Men know we like this and they have it in them right?  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!  I can't write that enough!  Well luckily John did know the meaning of this.  And that is what brought us so close together so soon.  Because I will tell you next, how Country-ex really seemed to have those same traits in him.  He did for a while, but life happens and things change in peoples own self...and then everything changes from what you once knew.

So for Valentine's Day in 2004 I had a show that night.  Actually Valentine's was on a Sunday, but I went out with Country-ex that Saturday.  After the show he came to pick me up.  Country-ex is in the parking lot behind the theatre waiting for me.  Then I am told by one of my castmates that John is back stage and has something for me.  OMG!!!  I was freaking out!  It's not that I didn't want John to know about Country-ex because I would get caught it was that I didn't want him to be hurt, that I had moved on.  Like I said John is sentimental.  The first trip I took to Illinois with him, where he is from outside of Chicago, when we go to his old elementary school he starts to bawl golf sized tears (he was a golf pro, so no pun intended) because that was his neighborhood, where he grew up, started to become a man.  So I end up telling my castmate to make up a story that I am not done with notes for the night or something.  He handed him the manila envelope and leaves sadened I'm sure. 

I get word that I can come back to the backstage area.  I am handed this manila envelope that is really thinck. I don't know what it is.  Melissa was with me along with a couple of castmates so we open it up.  WOW.
He has put together and entire notebook of every email we shared while I was in school in Arizona, Oklahoma, every birthday, holiday, anniversay, missing you what ever card you can think of that we sent to each other was in there.  If you remember my last blog where I said my mom gave me this box of memorabilia of things with John and I, that notebook was in there and I did read it...all 5 years of it.  Good lord!!!  So I flip thru it a bit and am stunned, sadened, teary eyed, but I know as hard as it is I have to get going to my new might be love, Country-ex.  I keep the notebook at my dressing room station, and dressed in my red sexy Valentine's dress I go to meet Country-ex. 

I knew a few things about the Vday night but not everything.  So my first surprise is what hotel we were staying in.  We pull up to the Adolphus downtown.  Beautiful place.  We are taken up to a suite and it is gorgeous.  Huge living room and dining room area, wonderful bedroom, awesome bathroom.  There is champagne in the room and I AM IN HEAVEN!!!!  We drop our stuff off and head off to a late dinner at the Green Room in Deep Ellum (miss that place).  We go back to the hotel, have a drink in the bar area, peek in the French Room once it has closed, another drink in the bar area and having the time of our lives.  When we do go up to the room and let me tell you all the things here tonight were planned and had to be scheduled by Country-ex.  Rarely happened again...

I walk in the room and rose petals are on the floor with a path to the bed and on the bed is a heart made out of rose petals.  We have chocolate covered strawberries, fluffy hotel robes, and bag full of goodies with some lame romantic movie, candles and other items.  We are both having so much fun and eating up those strawberries.  I swear to god and he does too...those were the best chocolate covered strawberries we ever ate.  We called room service and asked for more.  When the hotel said well not sure what we have left, how many you want, Country-ex said "all of em"!  They were gonna cost a lot , but he didn't care.  We got a new tray of them shortly after...about 6 or 8 of them and once again gobbled them up!!!  Shortly after that we had to take a picture of ourselves in the room.  We concocted the camera on a chair with a waste paper basket and as crazy as it sounds we got the best pictures.  See for yourself.  I was given this picture framed in a beautiful Waterford Crystal from for my birthday a couple of weeks later.  Wow the thought of it still brings damn feelings, shit! 

After all that fun, having more champagne and hitting the mini bar, well the sexy lingerie I bought for that night came out of course.  And when I mentioned the big living room/dining room earlier, well there were these marble love seats but without cushions at every window. We ended up eventually in one of them, not easy on the knees.  Maybe that's why I have tendonis to to this day.  LOL!  As we were in the window it started snowing.  Kinda like the crazy weather we are having now in 2010.  We watched as it honestly came down really hard and so beautiful.  It was fun, but I love snow... brings out some kind of childhood facsination in all of us.  We eventually go to bed...I have no idea what time it is.  I had a matinee that next day, Sunday (actually Valentine's Day) ,we got Breakfast in Bed...love that.  I get ready for my show and we do have to leave a bit earlier than planned because of the snow that has fallen.  I was a bit worried cause I know there are idiots out there that can't drive in the snow and I felt good about Country-ex's driving, but you never know.  Well he did great that day in his close to almost beat down blue Jeep Cherokee.  But anything car related, almost accident in the years to come...whatever... he was the best driver ever.

I had the matinee show that day and of course since it was actually Valentine's Day and cause Country-ex and I could not get enough of each other then we were gonna spend that day together too.  Were else to go after my matinee but Hurricane where we first met.  But we all still went there all the time...I still do.  His best friend MW came and met us.  We hung out there for most of the night and back then we were young and that is when Greenville Avenue still had some strip clubs.  One being The Fare at Milton and Greenville Ave.  Well we ended up there.  Dark, sleazy place.  I didn't mind I was for it, not cause I like those places for numerous reasons, but with Country-ex living on Greenville with his BF, MW living with him and at the time they would get drunk and head there sometimes.  At least I can say, they didn't go for bad reasons. I was with them 90% of the time and it was fine wth me.  There were times I would get mad but just cause if Country-ex was already drunk he would head there, but not to look at girls, just being a big shot.  Let's go to a stip club, drink more and smoke a cigar. At least he knew he had me at home and that was better than any stripper I promise you.    He never smoked and ALWAYS got on my for me smoking cigarettes, but it was like his place where he could escape even though he was with the person he loved.   They were guys, what can you say.  I don't even know how manytimes I went to Million Dollar Saloon with Country-ex and other girls and guys, its just what we did sometimes.  But at the Fare I remember playing pool and mostly making out all night with Country-ex.  But when I went to the ladies restroom which was a bit disturbing to me because it was ALSO the strippers dressing room...I was taught an honest, innocent trick for girls.  I still do it to this day.  To know this trick you would need to email me at renee.e.smith@sbcglobal.net.  It's not bad, just handy.  LOL!  But going to the bathroom and being a tall as I am the saloon doors to the toilets don't help you stay private.  Pretty sure I went to the restroom once and told Country-ex about my bathroom experience and that we needed to leave soon. 

So that was my first Valentine's with Country-ex.  As you can tell memorable.   There were no others like that.  It's like giving a baby a piece of candy and when they are crying for another piece you should give them more but you just don't.  So for the next 4 years I was crying for another piece of candy.  This blog actually took me a while to type.  It was hard.  Had to come back to it a few times.  I hope you enjoy and understand more about our life.

Saturday, February 21, 2010 ♦ Story about John, April 2004

Hi everyone!  Hope you are having a great Saturday!  I have so far.  A bit tired cause I went out with Nima, Nico and Sarah last night!  Thanks Brooks and Eddy at Veritas Wine Bar!
http://www.veritaswinedallas.com/
And thanks Nima for making me have the last margaritas cause I had to get my keys inside of Hacienda. 

So Country-ex and I have been dating for 2 months now.  And I really like him and think he has so many great qualitites I want in a long term relationship.  I'm still suppose to be moving to NYC, but both Melissa and I had not yet.  I was working at Pappasito's to make some extra money and having fun working with Brendan my crazy hooker friend!  And if I'm gonna move to NYC I better know how to really wait tables.  Funny, years ago Country-ex worked at the same Pappasito's in Richardson.  Anyways I am at Sur la Table taking a cooking class with my Mom and I let her know that I might want to see where this relationship will go and not move to NY.  She of course was ecstatic!  She worried about me moving there.  Now my Dad on the other hand was probably not going to like it.  I really wasn't for sure what I would do, but just throwing the idea out there. 

I got offered to take manage the Front Desk at Northwood Club where I had worked since 1996 at the Snack Bar at the pool during the summer.  that is where I met John by the way.  So I started at Northwood the first of April.  Figured I would keep working in Dallas to make more money if I did move to NYC.  Breakups are never easy of course and it wasn't an easy breakup for John.  I had very little conversation with him out of respect to Country-ex, but when he called I would be nice and answer.  So he really wanted to see me and take me to lunch.  It was the day before I started at NWC and I agreed.  Went to On The Border one of our fav places.  We had lunch, and nice chat and then he walks me to my car, but asks me to come to his car first.  We go to the passenger side and he reaches in to pull something out.  It is a ring box.  WHAT???  He said he at least wanted to show me the engagement ring he had picked out for me and was hoping our relationship would get back on the right path and then propose.  He looked very sad and I was shocked.  Shocked because this was happening and shocked for another reason.  See John and I talked a lot about marriage and rings, stuff like that.  He had MANY pictures of the type of ring I wanted.  He wanted the pictures.  So when he shows me a ring like this

and he had umpteen million pictures of rings like this

I was shocked!  Not trying to sound bratty, but they are very different.  So it honestly made me think this was not the real ring, that he borrowed if from his jeweler and he KNEW that is was NOTHING like I wanted to give me one last jab.  I don't really know and never will.  Plus the gold ring diamond was seriously like 5 carats!  It was huge and I knew he did not have the money to really spend on a diamond that size.  So we had a nice long hug and said our good byes.  I may had seen John one last time months after that, just to grab a quick drink and see how we were doing.  He started dating a woman and ended up marrying her last year in August.  How you like that.  He said I had ruined him on marriage and that I was the one and he never would and he goes and gets married before me.  That really bothered me cause it was when Country-ex and I were not always doing so great and I wanted more from him.  My Mom gave me a box to go thru and it was all of mine and John's relationship, cards, letters, pictures from OU and that hurt my heart.  Not cause I made the wrong choice with him, but because I wasn't there yet...and so wanted to be.

Friday, February 19, 2010 - Psycho & Country-ex Encounter, February 2004

TGIF BABY!!! 

Well really TGIF doesn't mean much to me because I work Saturdays : - ( 
But I still have my fair share of some Friday nights.  I try to keep them more low key.  Just finished my turkey and cheese sandwich, feeling good so here we go.

Country-ex came to see me in the musical I was performing in at Theatre Three on a Saturday night.  After the show we met up with my best friend Lee, the guy she was dating then and a few other friends at The Cavern on Lower Greenville.  Our friends band Tall used to play there and I think might have been there that night.  Well I see Psycho's best friend Don.  He was always cool and nice to me.  We chat for a bit, introduce him to everyone and then he warns me that Psycho is there too, with some girl.  Automatically Lee is ready to kick his ass cause she's always got my back.  And he involved himself in her life too and she tried many times to talk sense into me as to why I was seeing him.  Of course I turn to Country-ex and say all will be good, I hope.  Had to warn him just in case.  But Psycho finds out I'm there and right away that doey eyed, sad, poutty lip look comes across his face.  Augh makes me cringe today.  I look away and warn Country-ex.  Lee gets in fighting mode.  I think she even had words with him.  I let her cause sometimes it's just good to get things off your chest. 

So Country-ex and I are sitting in a booth-like chair in the middle of the place.  And Psycho walks over to me and starts talking privately to me.  I tell him this is not the place or the time and please do not do this.  I begged and I knew with him, the only way to get rid of him was to talk to him away from everyone.  So I told Country-ex what I needed to do hoping he wouldn't be freaked out by all of this.  Cause you know guys, the less drama the better.  But he was extremely cool about it.  So Psycho and I walk all the way in the back of the bar.  He asks me what am I doing and who am I with.  I tell him it is someone I have JUST met and that we are broken up and not meant to be together, but I am very sorry.  So he starts in on...and I shit you not this is what he said cause it wasn't the first time I heard it...but we are suppose to be together...you are suppose to be the mother of my children...we are suppose to grow old together...it's not suppose to be like this...you are suppose to bear my children.  And of course I respond...no that is not how it is suppose to be, I will never be your wife.  Things have changed with us and I cannot be with you.  I tell him please do not make a scene because I have to go back. 

Luckily he lets me go back and for the rest of the time he was there he pierces me with his eyes.  He held a lot of sadness in his life so even the smallest of things would have shown that same look.  See I'm not stupid and when I thought things were not the truth with him I called him out on them and he came clean.  And with the lies he told not only to me but his close friends he asked us all to begin calling him by his birth name and not his writing name.  I know crazy!  Oh hi Ashton..., I mean Chad.  And his other best friend who I kinda knew from high school knew of a few things.  And this friend was gay, which when the truth coming out a lot of us wondered about Psycho's sexuality.  I'm not saying he was gay, but with the way he was I could maybe see him NOW going both ways.  Anyways so I guess at some point he remembers he was there with this girl that if I remember correctly could have been a girl he picked up on the side of the road!  She just looked ragged!  He seems like he gets pretty wasted and leaves with the side of the road chic!  I was relieved.  Country-ex took it all well and it never seemed to bother him cause I did apologize one more time. 

FYI - before I went to my performance that night I talked to my other first ex John and I ended things with him.  From meeting Country-ex I knew I wanted to be with him, get to know him and not juggle anyone else.  It was hard and we were both sad, but I felt at peace. 

Next time I will tell the story that happened about a month later with John.  TGIF!!!

Thursday Night, February 18, 2010

Good Late Night!  Just waiting for nails to dry a bit longer, then off to bed...but wanted to send a quick post cause only in my world and do get that I allow things that happen to me happen cause I say yes.  Way too often.  But one of my FAVORITE songs http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/need-you-now/id348838758 is Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.  Beautiful song! 


So the lyrics go in my case...Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor, Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore, And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind, For me it happens all the time, It's a quarter after one (actually 6:30pm), I'm a little drunk and I need you now, Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now, And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now. 

Shockingly I was not the drunk caller.  Let's go back to Tuesday and I kinda was.  But I was sent a text first,then proceeded with my offer - another story for another date.  Actually Tuesday night helped prompt meto start writing.  So standing in line tonight at Ulta I get a call from someone who had been out for a few beers.  Tried figuring out what they wanted from some questions and them asking me so what are you doing then?  Well interesting evening which I did not spend alone.  Actually been up doing things since 9pm and someone has been sleeping.  Don't get me wrong I could have fallen asleep too, but I really was getting hungry, had laundry to do and needed to get on the computer.  Oh and now I have pretty toes in Strawberry Margarita and fingernails in Man-Darin Hard To Find.  I won't say who is here withme, but if you have caught on to my word I bet you can guess.  More post to come in the future will help you put everything into perspective....maybe...

Nite all, 6am spin in the morning.  Augh!!!  Muah!  Poutty says night too!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Good Afternoon Y'all!
Hope everyone is doing well and while eating my lunch I thought I would write my 2004 Super Bowl party story.  So I got a phone call from my ex the next day after we met.  That is always a good sign.  He invited me to his Super Bowl party for that Sunday.  I ended up asking Biotch (Melissa) to come with me.  We were doing Wild Party at Theatre Three at the time together.  We had a matinee, would go home to take off stage makeup and head to his party.  Well the day of Melissa tells me that her parents are making her do a family Super Bowl party and she can't come.  I panicked for a second thinking damn I really don't know this guy and of course not his friends, but felt bad to back out just cause I had to go alone.  My Mom was not thrilled of course that I would go alone, but I felt confident and safe enough to go.

So off I go to his condo with my 2 bottles of Riesling.  One of Country-ex's friends later told me that he asked him so what does she look like?  And since Country-ex did have beer goggles on the night we met, he answered, well she tall, blonde and pretty!"  Not bad for beer goggles.  I found the condo and there were 6 people including my ex.  That same night, one of my soon-to-be best friends, SF met MW (Country-ex's BF) and started dating.  Years forward they got engaged, but are no longer together.  Must have been something in the water that night!  But they are both extremely happy with the way their lives have panned out.  Then there was my ex-best friend and another couple at the party.  Too bad I'm not at my home computer or I would include pictures from that night - so I will later.  The pink and purple sweater I wore became my ex's favorite and said I never wore it enough after.  The night was fun and everyone was very nice.  A plate was broken, avocado was thrown on the celing.  A plastic chair was also broken and my ex-BF sat on a planter box and got her butt stuck in it.  Needless to say we all got tipsy, tipsy, tipsy, drunk.  I did tell my ex that in about a month I was moving to New York to pursue my acting and modeling career.  He said well let's see how this all goes and take it from there.  He was even open to a long distance relationship if we both wanted. 

Much later that night my ex takes me upstairs to either show it to me or had other plans in mind.  Can't remember, cause A. I was drunk and B. it was 6 years ago.  But we ended up NOT coming downstairs.  And the friends got locked out of the condo and were throwing rocks up at the window.  We did not hear them.  Eventually they got let in and some went home and one friend might have stayed over downstairs.  My ex and I passed out in his room and I did not go home.  Yup that made my mama real proud.  And pissed the f-off!  But also at that time I was rebellious towards my parents.  I was trying to move to New York, living with them to save money, had just dated Pyscho and wanted them out of my business.  What 26 year old doesn't.  So when I did wake up once thinking oh lord my Mama is gonna skin my ass, I also didn't know who might be downstairs sleeping, I would have to find my clothes in the dark and make my way downstairs to get my phone.  So I stayed in the bed.

Next morning, got up, chatted with the ex and left.  My parents had been blowing up my phone.  They were happy/pissed to hear from me.  I think my Mom was in tears.  I mean I know when I have kids and they pull a stunt like that I'm gonna be pissed the hell off too.  They had even called the police which told them to call the cell phone company to see if I made any phone calls after a certain time.  My Mom had left work and was with Dad I think even driving around.  I got home and got quite a beating, verbally.  I felt bad, but was still in this mind set that well if I lived by myself it wouldn't have been a big deal.  So I locked myself in my room and got ready for my modeling job that afternoon.  I was working with Jan Strimple at the time.  And it's funny now, that Jan and I worked together again, but not modeling.  She runs the fashion show and back stage production for the Salvation Army charity event held at my work last year in May.  And we saw each other again in November and joked with her husband how many years ago we modeled together.  It was a fun and an easy gig and to make $900 in 3 days was awesome to me!

A couple of days later Country-ex and I go out to dinner.  It was too soon to have him come up to the door and meet the fols, especially since steam was still coming out of my Mom.  We went to PF Changs (love that place).  But I had to make a deal with Country- ex.  Since my parents were ticked off and I explained to him some about Pyscho that it would put them at ease to have him meet them.  He agreed and a few days later we had him over to dinner.

Ok a bit more and I will move on.  Cause I really don't plan on telling our whole life story.  I would seriously have to quit my job and become a writer.  HA and I'm so not a writer.  My parents would laugh at the thought of me writing all of this.  I just want to include certain important and funny stories to lead up to today.   

So here's a bit more...my Mom asked well what does he like to eat?  Hell I didn't know.  So she came up with Cheese Fondue.  We thought that works, everyone loves CHEESE and it's good conversation food.  Country-ex is from a well known, populated country town.  And from living in Dallas then for about 4 or 5 years had become Dallasized, but there was a lot for him to learn once entering the Smith Family World of Food.  Hell he wouldn't have touch sushi until he met me and Tony Lee.  So Country-ex had not had cheese fondue.  He did so well and was so cute.  He kept loosing his bread, and then would just barely dip his bread in it so he didn't even get the cheese.  So we said stab that bread and dip it in and get that CHEESE.  Yeah and my parents were afraid of him being wierd.  He probably thought he entered into the world of loud crazies.  Needless to say the next time we had Country-ex over my Mom made fabulous steaks and he was happy to know we were not vegetarians.  He was happy till she served dessert.  Frozen Cappuccinos.  Country-ex hates coffee!  I didn't know this.  I really don't like it either though I couldn't live without it when I was young.  He ate off the top of the whipping cream, tried it and stopped right there and in the most genuine way said I am so sorry but I have to tell you all the truth, I just don't like coffee!!!  We all got a good laugh and coffee was never offered to him again.

Well back to work.  Stay tuned for my next story and this one actually involved Psycho and Country-ex! 

And as promised, here is the first pic I took with my ex.  So young and innocent.  Brings a tear to my eye.

Part 2 of February 17, 2010

Ok I know this blog is gonna be fun!  I'm still at work and it's been a long day.  But I'm getting great feedback from my friends. 

Perfect that we just had the Super Bowl!  Go Saints!  Cause the next part of my story is all about Super Bowl.  Super Bowl in 2004 was on February 1, 2004.  Hence the anniversary date of me and my ex.  That Sunday he invited me to his Super Bowl Party where I met my ex-best friend, an old best friend that I am friends with again and many others.  So that is up next...but my feet hurt, I'm tired and I need to go home to my kitty.  He hasn't been fed yet. 

See you all tomorrow!  Muah!

February 17, 2010 First Blog Posting Day!!!!

Hello World!

I have always wanted to start a blog, but honestly before now I don't think I was exciting enough!  Ok take that back I am always exciting, but 7 months ago or even at the beginning of last year I wouldn't have anything too exciting to say THEN.  It would have been more complaining.  About my life and the relationship I was in.  Don't get me wrong I loved the relationship I was in, but at the 5 year mark on February 1st, 2009 it was not heading in the directions I wanted it too.  And so I am now starting a blog for my sake and anyone else who might be interested.  Since being newly single some of the craziest shit has happened.  It's a whole new world out there.  So with this new chapter in my life I wanted to start jotting down my thoughts, happenings, heartache, etc.  I just told a friend the other day, "you can't make this shit up"!  So here we go!

Wow where to start?  I'll start off with some insight.  So I met my ex 6 years ago.  Let's give him a name.  Some names I am leaving out well cause they are in my life now and who knows who all might read this.  Country-ex will be his name.  And for those of you who know me you know EVERYONE I'm talking about.  It was a funny story and he always liked telling it.  I had been to a model audition that day and if I remember correctly I officially ended it, no if ands or buts, my relationship with Psycho early evening.  We dated almost 6 months and that night we were broken up but had to give back his key and say sorry for us not working out.  That's a whole nother story.  And if I remember correctly I think I saw John, my ex (of 5 years) before Country-ex (of 5 years, you see a trait) that night after Psycho.  See once Psycho started bothering me, I went back to John, but he wanted to get back to gether too.  So I dated them both for a while.  Wow that is hard.  Especially when one is a psycho!  Can I say that enough?  But he stalked me too so it just wasn't easy.  And I was about to officially end it with John again too.  I had changed and he just wasn't the one for me anymore.  Even though at one time I thought he was the person I would marry.  So off to Hurricane to meet my best friend and some other friends.  My friend Lisa and I were sitting at a table when she warned me that a guy was coming over and she thought he was coming to see me.  Well it was Country-ex and he asked me for a cigarette for his friend.  Off the bat he seemed nice.  We may have chatted for a bit and he left.  A few minutes later he comes back to give me back my cigarette because his friend already found one.  Next he asks if I would like to come sit at his table.  I felt safe with him, thought he was genuine, cute, good looking and really sweet.  And I loved his accent.  Hard to understand even to this day sometimes.    He was a bit tipsy but that was ok.  Country-ex was there with his best friend and another friend who was in town.  The friend from out of town was pretty drunk and after a while he ended up knocking my tall frozen Hurricane drink all in my lap!  Boy it was cold and I was shocked.  But I didn't freak out.  I felt embarrased for me, Country-ex and the drunk out of town guy.  But they were so sorry, got me towels and helped clean me up.  Luckily I was wearing black slacks so you couldn't tell.  To this day my ex said he knew I must be a pretty cool girl for not freaking out and running the other way.

He and I hit it off.  My best friend loved my ex that night because she lived for a while in T-town where he is from.  And they knew some of the same people.  And my best friend was happy for me to have met a normal guy.  You know since I was coming off of Psycho.  So the night proceededwith us swaping phone numbers,  getting low on the dance floor and ended with a slow dance and our first kiss.  I was on cloud 9!  So happy!  I couldn't wait to tell my Mom I met this great guy who I knew she would like!  I was really excited!  And when I walked in the door that night my ex said he knew he was going to meet me and his friends helped push him there.  That was January 28, 2004.  A day I will never forget.