Few years later here's my update...good reaed

Today is Wednesday, January 8th, 2014 and I have not posted on here since October 2010.  Stopped because I didn't want to, plus had nothing to say or share.  Cobwebs I guess you can say.  Many things have happened since then.  Love...loss...not all with me.  But I had a best friend of 10 years that I will always cherish for knowing her.  We had a falling out dealing with a business deal concerning her husband.  Never expected or wanted this to happen but it did.  So since that friend loss it's sad to say that I am now more myself than ever!  This friend was amazing.  Helped me and my family out greatly.  But her inability to trust and deep down emotions wore on me without me even knowing it.  But let me tell you that this 10 year best friend last year went through hell and back.  And I was there for her completely.  So when her husband helped me out with something that is not his normal job and I was a first timer with this service and I wasn't happy with the way he conducted ways with me but went with it...and when I saw him all the time I would ask him about it and what I owed and paid, then 2-3 months later I get a bill saying I owe any amount I wasnt expecting or able to pay, that would be an issue.  I love to tell a story but it doesn't go well from here.  I'm not married so I have my dad that looks out for me and only intervenes when he knows there's foul play going on here.  In one conversation I cried to my dad...please don't make me loose my best friend...but I also knew her and her husband and once they knew the dispute I had it was severed.  Cause she always thought all her friends were out to get her, THEY DID SAY THE WRONG THINGS AND THEY DID NOT TREAT HER LIKE A FRIEND.  But that wasn't me.  But there was no going back.  She and her husband had gone through so much that year that it didn't matter.  Even though I had given my life, my mother, pissed off her mother, friend, husband, everyone to make her life easier  BUT...I am more more myself, strong and in tune with my life than ever before .  

So that ended badly, but life gets better...it really does.  I will post again tomorrow and give insights on my new life.  Stay tuned...