Few years later here's my update...good reaed

Today is Wednesday, January 8th, 2014 and I have not posted on here since October 2010.  Stopped because I didn't want to, plus had nothing to say or share.  Cobwebs I guess you can say.  Many things have happened since then.  Love...loss...not all with me.  But I had a best friend of 10 years that I will always cherish for knowing her.  We had a falling out dealing with a business deal concerning her husband.  Never expected or wanted this to happen but it did.  So since that friend loss it's sad to say that I am now more myself than ever!  This friend was amazing.  Helped me and my family out greatly.  But her inability to trust and deep down emotions wore on me without me even knowing it.  But let me tell you that this 10 year best friend last year went through hell and back.  And I was there for her completely.  So when her husband helped me out with something that is not his normal job and I was a first timer with this service and I wasn't happy with the way he conducted ways with me but went with it...and when I saw him all the time I would ask him about it and what I owed and paid, then 2-3 months later I get a bill saying I owe any amount I wasnt expecting or able to pay, that would be an issue.  I love to tell a story but it doesn't go well from here.  I'm not married so I have my dad that looks out for me and only intervenes when he knows there's foul play going on here.  In one conversation I cried to my dad...please don't make me loose my best friend...but I also knew her and her husband and once they knew the dispute I had it was severed.  Cause she always thought all her friends were out to get her, THEY DID SAY THE WRONG THINGS AND THEY DID NOT TREAT HER LIKE A FRIEND.  But that wasn't me.  But there was no going back.  She and her husband had gone through so much that year that it didn't matter.  Even though I had given my life, my mother, pissed off her mother, friend, husband, everyone to make her life easier  BUT...I am more more myself, strong and in tune with my life than ever before .  

So that ended badly, but life gets better...it really does.  I will post again tomorrow and give insights on my new life.  Stay tuned...

Saturday, October 16, 2010 - Long time no type

It has been forever since I wrote.  I just seem to forget sometimes even though there is always something going on or something to type.  I am going to keep this short because I am busy and kinda in the middle of something, but here is what is on my mind today.  Has been for the past weeks.  Been on mine and others.  I am pretty easy going, yes a bit anal, sometimes yes selfish, ok more than sometimes, but I am considerate and understand everyone is different.  Why do so many people have to get their panties in a wad!?!?!?!?!  I mean really, life is too short to bitch about small things.  Like say at work...work used by everyone and everyone respects it.  If you are not here a lot and something happens to get put in your room for a day or for a few minutes don't finally come in and say it happens all the time.  Your not here so you have no idea.  I've learned you can't say something in fear of one set of ears running and telling the person I made a comment about.  It's just childish.  So there is my little rant!  But I do want to say it is a great family that works here and cherish everyone!

I had a blast from the past email me about 2 weeks ago.  That would be the ex-best friend.  I did reply, kept it short and sweet.  She had not replied and I was fine with that.  Well she now replied which is ok...didn't leave the email like I felt that I needed to reply, but her last comment was that she thinks about me often and now just befriended me again on facebook.  That is not going to happen now and maybe never because then she will know everything that I do.  So this I gotta figure out.

Ok well I need to go touch up paint here in the salon and I will be heading to Casa Berry later this afternoon!  Yay can't wait!!!!!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I haven't blogged in FOREVER!!!!!  I just didn't take the time to do it.  My life and schedule changed so much since I lost my job at the country club back in June.  I started working for my BF Janna at her salon and am so thankful for her giving me this job while I search for a new one.  I am so enjoying working here with everyone and the time I get to spend with Janna...like we already didn't!  lol!!!

I have been to my long time BF Lee's lakehouse many times I could move in there!  Enough said!  lol!

My friend Monica moved here from CA and is living with me some and her family some while she transistions to a new job and NEW life!  Boy has she had some drama there!  But she is a super strong chica and has gone through A LOT!!!!  So proud of her!

I've still been riding even in this heat, but not as much outside.  Dad and I did The Goatneck on July 31 in Cleburne and Glen Rose, TX.  70 miles and it got HOT!!!  The heat almost killed me.  I joked that my next BIG ride will be in October!!!!

So I have had a pretty decent, many times stressful and funfilled summer with friends!  Hate the heat, but will be sad when the summer is eventually over with. 

Check back in with ya in a day or so!!!!  xoxo

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Good afternoon!

Not too much to report about but trying to stay better with the blogging.  Last night I went to our Team Beach Body Fitness Class and did P90X+!  Great workout, but the one last week I thought was harder.  Last week was all air Kickboxing, over and over, faster and faster.  I was pretty sore after that one.  Yesterday was some plyometrics, some kicks and punches, but nothing too intense.  Turbo Jam I think is more intense.  But the 3 count and 2 count pushups while sweat is running off every part of your body and into your eyes is tough!  Thank you Kelly, Jimmy and John for a great class!

After that I headed home and finished watching Dancing with the Stars finale.  We all knew Nicole and Derek would wine.  Did stuff around the house like finally organizing my cookbooks in the shelves.  I have my first picture to hang in the study too.  Since the shelves are black I am taking my friends John and Nima's black and white photos, having them made in black frames and will hang those on the wall.  But I am going to wait till I order more to place them properly.  I did not watch Glee yet, but hear it was a good one.

Actually going back to Monday I did not watch The Bachelorette because I was crying over Jack Bauer leaving us.  See I watched last seasons show with Jake...why you ask, well cause he is hot and also looked like a guy I dated last year and he is from Dallas.  Well even though I still think he's hot, he is now a tool for many reasons and because he picked Vienna.  Hope I never see them out and about in Dallas!  I might get sick!  But I did like Ali.  Anyways...there is a guy called Reality Show Steve who goes on 106.1 Kidd Kraddick Show and spoils the Bachelor shows if you want to listen.  He was right on last year with the outcomes and was on today giving all the scoop.  This season he only knows the last 2 guys to win Ali's heart but not who she actually picks.  Even though I listened I still want to watch to see it all play out.  Here is his website if you are interested...
http://realitysteve.com/

I am heading to Blue Mesa tonight for our NACE membership meeting and then dinner plans.  Maybe date dinner plans to be exact.  Well that's all for now, back to work!  Happy Hump Day All!

A little late, but here is my post on the Sam's Club MS 150 2010

Hi everyone and Happy Tuesday!

Well the Sam's Club MS 150 Frisco to Fort Worth was May 1-2 and Dad and I rode with the Gardere Gearheads for the 3rd row to raise money for multiple sclorosis.  Here we are getting the bikes on the car and getting ready!

I was excited about the ride, but was praying for weeks it would not rain us out!  Last year the 2nd day was rained out.  We met at our meeting point at 5:30am in Frisco and of course it started raining pretty heavily.  Everyone scrambled to get their bikes covered and us to take cover, grabbing rain coats, etc.  But we were all prepared for this.  Cell phones were in plastic bags as well as our computers.  Rain passed, sun eventually rose but the ride was delayed till 7:30am. 

The Gearheads got their turn to go thru the Start Line about 8:00am and away we went. 
We rode with fellow teammates that we have become friends with and when training we rode together as well.

Day One was a great ride, weather was perfect and from the start to lunch my braces that I bought for my patellar tendonitis were doing great.  The ride starts out in Frisco, heads to Ponder, Krugerville, Pilot Point, across Lake Ray Roberts to Sanger for lunch.  Then to Krum, Ponder, Justin and finishes at Texas Motor Speedway finally riding 86 miles.  This was the most we have riden for Day One since doing the ride.  When we got to lunch I didn't really know at the time but I had my braces on too tight and they were cutting into my skin on both inner thighs.  And from being too tight I started to get cramps in my legs around the knee area, above and below where the braces are on.  That does happen from time to time.  But lunch was great cause I love Subway.  Here Shelley and I are enjoying our lunch break!  And they had a bad ass DJ that was spinning music right behind us!

After lunch I suffered for about 25 miles with cramps in my legs, but when you're on a bike and you don't want to stop and really can't...you just push through it!  I don't like pain, but if you ride bikes you really have to withstand a lot!!!!  I have some great pictures that brightroom.com took of me throughout the ride that I will post once I get my CD in the mail.  Has pics of me and others crossing the finish line.  First day we finished in about 5 hours.  Was super happy to get to Texas Motor Speedway to the Gardere tent. 

Quick shower at the speedway, Franzia wine, BBQ lunch and waited for a massage from Cedric.  I fell asleep during some of the massage, but it was fabulous!!!!  Dad had his first ever real massage at the hotel that evening so we all grabbed our bikes and rode across the street to the hotel.  But my bags were still at the tent.  Bag was too big and heavy to ride with.  So I get the shuttle that will take me back and forth to the speedway back to my hotel.  Well hell...like an hour later I get back to my hotel.  The shuttle was taking others to their hotels way, way, way down the road!  We were lucky that we were so close, but then once I get my bag I then have to wait for another shuttle!!!  I just wanted to take another shower and relax!  Dad and I ordered room service and chilled in the room.  I went to visit Shelley and Brian so Shelley could give me my riding cocktail to help with my muscle cramps and knees.  Helped a lot!  Here I am relazing in bed and nursing my knees.

Day Two came very early.  4am wake up it never easy!  We met our team downstairs, got some breakfast bars, bananas, beverages ready to head over to the Speedway in the dark.  And it was a chilly morning as well!  Most of the riders eat breakfast at the Speedway and then take a lap around it.  Our team take an even bigger lap around the outside of the Speedwayand parking lots to warm up and to see where we need to meet the rest of the riders at the Start Line.  Our captain and his other fast friend riders always get a head start.  This year our team being a much smaller group on Day Two joined them.  We got a 30 minute head start and were more than happy to do that.  Day Two leaves Texas Motor Speedway to Justin, then to Decatour for lunch.  We had Subway again at 9:30am.  You're really not hungry yet, but know you need to eat to finish out the day.  Next we went to Boyd, Rhome to Eagle Mountain Lake where the dreaded mile climb is!  Everyone dreads it.  Day Two is a beating...all hills and VERY hard ones at that!  That is why a lot of people do not do Day Two.  After the lake we have about 14- 15 miles to go before getting to Fort Worth.  There is one last rest stop with 10 miles left to go.  I only stopped to put on my left knee brace.  It had been bothering me and I knew with the beast of a bridge getting into Fort Worth at the court house I would need all the help I could get!  We finished Day Two with 77 miles.  Here are pics of Dad and I finishing and hanging out at the tent.

Here we are with Shelley and Steve.  Dad and I rode in with Steve and Shelley beat us in.  Steve's son Matt also ride with our team and does professional racing.  We made it to Fort Worth about 1:00pm, changed our of my damn braces and tight shorts so I could get feeling back in my body and let my skin breath.  No shower this time, had to wait.  Mom met Dad and I in Fort Worth, so I now had a Franzia wine drinker with me.  We all just sat around talking about the ride, relaxing and eating.  I think the Vicodin and muscle relaxers I had been taking during the ride then with the wine made me tired and loopy.  We finally were going to get going back to Dallas.  It was not a far walk to the car, but long enough with my heavy bag on my tired shoulder while walking my bike to the car.  Once in the car I think I passed out almost immediately!!!  Mom and Dad woke me up when we got to their house and all I did was get out of the car, grab my stuff, walk in the house say bye and back out to my car to head home.  Once home I just sat down and needed to eat some more before I could even take a shower.  I think I might have napped for a bit!  Finally found the energy to take a shower and spent the rest of the night on the couch!  I had to be at work at 7:30am the next day for the Salvation Army Fashion Show and Luncheon.  I usually do not work Mondays but for 2 years now its the day after the ride.  Boy if I ever needed a day off it would be that one.  I went to work Monday in a crazy cloud and finally barely got out of it by 3pm.  But a little shopping in the Chic Boutique made me happy!

Thank you to Keith Novak, Jen Boren, everyone on our Gardere team and the many volunteers that worked our tents.  And to the many friends and family that donated to the great cause to find a cure for multiple sclorosis.  Without all of you this all could not happen! 

Looking forward to the MS 150 on April 30-May 1, 2011.

Friday, April 30, 2010 • It's Been a Long Time

DAVID THIS IS FOR YOU!!!
I got away from writing my blog because A. I was super busy at work and in the evenings all the time, B. to write in my blog meant talking about some stuff going on in my life and that was hard.  Mostly because it involved some people I just didn't need to write about and talk about them on here.  And C. I got lazy!  So I'm back!

A lot has been going on!  Had one of my best friends Monica come in town and stay with me!

Which led me to hearing things about Country-ex.  Some of it bothered me and that's when I stopped writing I think.  Nothing too bad, some good.  It was just a lot to hear in a matter of a week and I broke down a bit.  But all in one night.  Tequila shots and margaritas helped me thru!  No actually my Mom helped me immensely one night.  She always tells me the truth even if I don't want to hear it but talking to her really helped.  So at this point I have not had any contact with Country-ex for well over a month and it is better that way.  Luckily we are civil with each other, but just like I told one of my best friends...you cannot really be friends with them.  You can't "hang out", talk, etc.  Just be happy that you both have an understanding that if we ever really needed each other the connection we had from being together will always be there. 

I have been training for the MS 150 bike ride a lot.  Riding with my bike team on Sundays and many 6am Spin classes.  Got my 2 new fancy knee braces so I am ready to go.  I will keep my friends updated on facebook on how the ride is going.  Praying that the rain stays away.  Thank you to everyone who has donated to myself and my Dad and helping find a cure for Multiple Sclorosis.

Work has been so busy!  It's social season which means charity events, non-profit organizations.  Lots of fashion shows...one for ESD, Community Partners of Dallas Chick Lit luncheon yesterday for 450 ladies, dance clubs, Monday is Salvation Army Fashion Show, Chic Boutique and Luncheon for 640!  The HUGE Sandone tent is being built as we speak on the back lawn.  This is a picture from the first day. 

Today it has sides, a floor and Planet Productions is putting in lights, runway and backstage area.  So after my ride this weekend and then this event on Monday...who is in for happy hour with me?????

Social life has been great and non-stop.  But wouldn't have it any other way.  If I get at least 1-2 nights a week to myself that works for me.  I have also met a new and interesting person, but that's as far as I will go.  Really just friends, but glad I met them.  It's complicated.  It's ALWAYS complicated with me.  I keep saying over and over, "you can't make this shit up"!!!  It would be really scary to see my life as a reality show!  Even more scary for me to watch it!

My best friend Janna opened up her hair salon!  YAY!!!  She has a personal trainer, 3 stylists, 1 esthetician and possibly a manicuritst coming.  So proud of her!  Janna Rose Salon on Boll Street.

Poutty is doing great!

I won the who is hotter contest with Nima!!  LOL!!!

Just went to the Mavs game on Tuesday and they won!  Best game ever!  Because we all had so much fun!  Non-stop silliness, missing Dart trains, people falling, lots of running and shots for all at el jimador bar just outside from our seats!

Gathered at Shuck n Jive before

AAA for the game!!  Too bad they lost last night.

So stay tuned for my next blog about the bike ride.  If you are my friend on facebook I will do my best to keep people up to date on that.  I know I'm gonna drive my Dad nuts taking pics and trying to post!!

Have a happy Friday everyone!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010 ☻ Time for Bed

I will make this quick cause I am super tired and have committed to myself to go to 6am Spin tomorrow!  And since I did reward myself today with getting a much needed mani and pedi by the time I was finished with that, went home to put on real flip flops and not the ones they give you at the salon, go to Petsmart, eat dinner, watch LOST and then tackle chores it's now midnight and I'm sleepy.

I am happy to report that my toilet and sink are fixed!!!!  Toilet issues that had been there for so long, but only got worse were from a plastic piece that broke off and was stopping up the drain pipe.  And kitchen sink was just stopped up.  Thank god from my home warranty cause for $60 both were fixed!  And my sweet Dad came over at 8:40am to wait for Rescue Rooter since I had to get to work.

Had an awesome and fun meeting with Cameron Fox who is owner of i-entertainment.
http://www.i-entertainment.net/
Wonderful company that can really add pizazz to your party or event.  Check out their site for ideas you might need in the future.  Thanks Cameron for my goodies! 

So all in all a good day.   A bit behind on a meeting I have to give at 6pm tomorrow before our NACE meeting at the Adolphus, but I will tackle the rest tomorrow even though I have a busy day.  Damn I wish I didn't have that noon tasting cause it will take forever.  Hopefully my 9:30am appointment will go fast cause I don't want to look bad.

And love to my bestest Janna for calling me back cause she said she would even after she took her dogs for a walk and her youngest Tess turned a corner heard a dog bark and flew her into the mud, hitting her jaw on the ground and scrapping her up and now has painful arms and shoulders.  Only happens to Janna or in the movies.  Calling me back almost in tears only to finish hearing my story about a guy.  Now that is a true friend.  But I already knew that!

Ok night time, hope you all have an awesome "hump day"!

Monday, April 5, 2010 • Rain, Rain Go Away

Hello, hello!
Wow I have been busy and sometimes so busy that when I have down time I really don't want to do a lot.  Have had a lot more issues going on with my house.  It really is in great shape, but when it was built in 1957 and it is now 2010 even with the improvements the previous owners and I did things like plumbing or having things installed wrong happen.  We think the previous owners either did a lot of the fixings themselves or used someone cheap.  So we are tackling everything with the right people! 

So I still have no master shower, still waiting on what the insurance company says to begin that job.  Can't use the toilet in that bathroom either.  I am using my guest bathroom and there is an issue with the shower handle so for 2 days I couldn't use the shower.  Luckily I have a Bonus Room attached to my garage with a shower.  I should have looked in it the night before, just thought it might be kinda dirty on the floor and I can rinse that out.  Nope!  4 giant, dead water bugs were in the bottom of it and for a moment I thought about going in my backyard, lathering up and just using the water hose.  Did not have time to get all the cleaning products to tackle that job, so I went to Plan B that morning and took hot water from sink and used that in the guest bath shower.  My Dad fixed the shower for now.  And then there is thetoilet which flushes slow in guest bath.  Well the seal on it is cracked.  That has to be fixed.  Then Saturday night my kitchen sink backs up.  I try plunging it, running boiling water and ice down it.  Then this black crud comes up!  Again the wonderful parentals come over Sunday after church while I was at work to check it out.  Dad realizes that the water pipe outside is cracked and the sink is clogged up.  So this morning I call my home warranty company to get these things looked at.  I have used my outside hose to rinse things off and feel like Little House on the Prairie!  But Alex who we use to fix a lot of things is here and put a vent in my garage for better air flow and is working on my guest bath shower as I type!  Waiting on a phone call to have someone look at the other issues!

This week was a draining week emotionally.  It is a long, long story.  And it all just seemed to hit one on top of each other.  And normally those things I can handle and I did with some tears.  But from dealing with stupid people on Wednesday and from finding out things concerning Country-ex from my best friend Monica and one thing from Lee earlier in the week it just hit me way to hard.  Plus my friend Monica is going thru her own issues and she came in town to stay with me 2 nights.  The advice I give her has been and still is given to me.  That advice is never easy to hear but so worth it!  Then one friend I go to for many reasons seems to get way out of hand sometimes with the way I come off and then what he thinks.  Nothing comes across the right way especially in texts.  I finally figured out completely why and what that person means to me which is only friendship, but the level of it and why they are more important because of their friendship I have had with them mostly when I was with Country-ex.  Sorry if it is confusing, but I have to be somewhat discrete since I am dealing with peoples real lives.  I know that I still face anger with Country-ex and blame him for the way I think about guys and what they should offer and give me.  I still cannot imagine that a guy is capable of saying and doing only those things I hear on TV or from friends...just cause it doesn't happen to me.  And the anger and hurt only plays with my mind.  My Mom helped me greatly and I usually never go to her in that state but was just beat down so she helped me late Wednesday night.  She will always tell the truth even if you don't want to hear it, cause you know it's true.  She said I need to stop thinking I am the victim cause I'm not.  See I did things to Country-ex that really did cause the final breakup and why that breakup we could not get back together.  Oh and one thing that really touch my heart this week was to find out that one of Country-ex's best friends discussed with their girlfriend and one of my best friends that they did not blame me for the final breakup.  And I spoke to them on Monday to thank them.  They said the exact same thing I was told...when Country-ex was always more worried about where is he going to go off to this weekend and where is he going to play golf that weekend and really never there for me and did not seem to get what a relationship is about for two people how could I not do or think what I thought when it came to us.  This person saw so much more even though they did not live in the same state and only saw us maybe once a month if even that. 

But sometimes every week or month is a struggle.  And I guess I am still shocked as to the toll it has taken on me.  So with every sad feeling and then milestone I have to go through is needed and only helps me.  Just wish it happened sooner!  My great friend Nima who will tell you like it is said I dwell on him too much and still talk about him too much when discussing my life.  And I know I do.  It's that the things in the past also have to do with him, stories, etc.  But no more.  I talk about my life and with me just in it.  Baby steps, but I have to get there.  Ok I'm gonna go try to ride and hope it doesn't rain.  Talk to ya later!